…my wife was pregnant; I wasn’t exactly excited. Kristen was
nauseous and vomiting for a few days now. I knew she was pregnant. She knew she
was pregnant. Anniston probably knew her mom was pregnant also. However, I was
still holding out hope that maybe she was sick with a virus or something. I got
in my car around 8pm and went to our local Walgreens. I told the associate that
I needed to buy a pregnancy test. He replied, “Must be something in the water,
this is the fifth one I’ve sold tonight.” I return home to Kristen. She comes
out of the bathroom with a positive test. We take a second test. Second test
was also positive. Anniston was not even a year old. What were we thinking
(insert jokes here)? The excitement that Kristen was experiencing was soon
removed by my poor attitude. I began to think about our life. We need a bigger
vehicle. We live in a 2-bedroom home; both rooms are occupied. Maybe it will be
a girl and they can share a room. What if it’s a boy? We need a bigger house.
We need better jobs. Honestly, I was very stressed and saw this as a negative
impact on our family.
Kristen was upset that I was upset. So I had to take a few
deep breathes (several times over the next few days). I remember something I
said to Kristen the night I found out she was pregnant. After my rant was over,
I said something to the effect of, “let’s wait and confirm everything with the
doctor before we start planning anything.” Kristen was very excited for another
baby, not necessarily this soon, but nonetheless, excited. I, however, have had
several premonitions, weird feelings, whatever you want to call them before and
after the pregnancy. The first one I will not share yet. The second was that
night when I just had a “feeling” that we shouldn’t get too excited just yet.
Let’s fast forward a month or so. We had our pregnancy
confirmed by our nurse. Kristen has already shared that with you. A few weeks
later we had our first appointment with the Dr. Million. This was my third
weird “feeling” (if you want to call it that). I recall sitting in the exam
room with Kristen waiting for the doctor to come in. The ultrasound machine
parked next to the exam table where Kristen was sitting. I took a picture of
the machine and commented to Kristen, “look how old this equipment looks.” It
was the same equipment that was used on Anniston and that turned out okay. I’m
not sure why I even noticed the equipment. I wouldn’t even be able to recognize
new equipment versus old equipment. But I did notice it and mention it to her.
Dr. Million examines Kristen and the baby. We were sent to see Dr. Fareeduddin
that day to confirm the diagnosis of acrania. Dr. Million told us, “I want you
to see a specialist because they have newer, nicer equipment and can see things
better than us.” That may not mean anything to most of you but if you are a
parent I think you can relate. Parents get “feelings” when things aren’t right.
I don’t know how to explain it or even if it makes sense.
Our next appointment is December 15th at 9:30am.
This will be with Dr. Fareeduddin and we will have another ultrasound. We’ll
find out if our baby is a little boy or a little girl. Each appointment I get a
little anxious. I’m afraid that one day we will not hear that little heartbeat.
We ask that you continue to pray with us. We pray for healing for our little
baby. Jeremiah 32:27 reads, “Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is
there anything too hard for me?” Our precious baby has a Lord and that Lord is
the creator of everything and life itself. We pray for healing. We pray for a
miracle. Thank you all again for all you do for us. We appreciate each call,
text, email, comment and letter.
Thank you! Harry & Kristen
